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Yah setalh seminggu mungkin ga angkat telp akhirnya gua angkat juga.. soale kemaren malamnya gua mimpiin die.. and as usual.. se[erti kebiasaan gua.. setiap kali gua mimpiin orang yah gua kmesti telp tuh orang or at least ask for he/she well being… dan anehnya emang kayaknya God want me to settle
everything wuth her..
so there i go….. walaupun sebenernya keangkat juga ga sengaja waktu dia telp.. kan gua pake headset
bluetooth jadi ga ngeliat lagi sapa yang telp. akhirnya keluar juga uneg2 yang slama ini gua simpejn and lama2 bisa jadi tumor kali di otak gue…. abis ga masuk diakal aja buat gua sih.
tapi lumayan otak gua jadi agak santai skarang and perasaan gua udah ga penuh emosi lagi.
Skarang ini jkt lagi banjir gede.. and depan rumah bener2 kerendem aer nih… saat2 seperti ini kok kayaknya bosenn banget… and sejujurnya agak kesepian juga yah,….
abis kita ga bisa kemana2 cuman bisa menatap air yang ga surut2 juga.
liat list nama di phonebook sapa aja yang bisa gua ajak ngobrol.. and kayaknya kok ga ada yah…
ya udah  akhirnya ga jelas aja maen inet and bikin blog. walaupun ga jelas juga mau tulis apaan.
Skarang lagi bingung bener.. gua mau apa sih sebenernya.. mau buka warnet? mau kerja? mau apa? mau ke mks? mau pacaran? ama sapa? udah siap blum? yahhh pertanyaan standar2 hidup deh.
dimana temen2 gua taun ini udah pada mau married.. ada 2… temen hang out dari smu…
lah gua jadi mikir kan..kok mereka bisa yah.. umur sama kok ama gua… kerja juga sama ama gua mulainya kira2, kok mereka bisa lebih siap yah. apa gua yang kurang yah? mereka udah dapet pasangannya masing2. and udah pas banget.. gua udah 10 kali pacaran lewat ga ada yang sreg.
ga ada yang tahan ama gua deh kayaknya yah.. dan kadang gua yang bodoh jg. tapi kan artinya there’s something wrong with me yah? atau ga? atau yah? ga jelas juga.
dulu udah ada yang sreg di ati .. eh guanya yang ga sreg… heheh emang it takes two to play sih.
kerjaan… lagi  luntang lantung.. nungguin orang bayar bagian gua bulan ini ga ada yang bayar..
mungkin lagi pada stress juga ga ada pemasukan.. yah mengerti aje deh daripada stress yah.
untung ada temen tempat gua curhat tiap ari.. jauh sih padahal.. hehe tapi bahkan dia pun belum mengenal gua dengan bae.. emang sih long distance mana bisa kenal yah?
tapi jadi mikir deh gua dengan idup ini… what do we want actually? i want to be happy? apakah happy itu? punya pasangan? ga juga.. wong slama ini gua punya pacar aja masalah mulu kayaknya..
punya duit? ga juga… malah pusing .. and jadi maruk pengen cari duit mulu.
punya temen? yah temen juga punnya masalah mereka masing,.. and sibuk ama diri ndiri.
gua tau jawabannya… Bersyukur aja ama apa yang kita miliki.. jawaban standar para pelayan Tuhan diluar sana yang menurut gua suka sok tau juga sih
.. yah sgala sesuatu itu sia sia…. and sgala yang lalu akan kembali lagi, idup itu muter terus kata temenku itu… seperti roda… sedih juga yah kalo seperti roda.. ga ada yang abadi
bahkan senyum pun ga abadi…
semuanya akan lenyap pada waktunya.. tinggal kita and Tuhan. berdua aja….so what;s the meaning? D’ya know what i mean?

"Somewhere Only We Know"

I walked across an empty land
I knew the pathway like the back of my hand
I felt the earth beneath my feet
Sat by the river and it made me complete
Oh simple thing where have you gone
I’m getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you’re gonna let me in
I’m getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

I came across a fallen tree
I felt the branches of it looking at me?
Is this the place we used to love?
Is this the place that I’ve been dreaming of?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I’m getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you’re gonna let me in
I’m getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don’t we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don’t we go
Somewhere only we know?

Oh simple thing where have you gone
I’m getting old and I need something to rely on
So tell me when you’re gonna let me in
I’m getting tired and I need somewhere to begin

And if you have a minute why don’t we go
Talk about it somewhere only we know?
This could be the end of everything
So why don’t we go
So why don’t we go

This could be the end of everything
So why don’t we go
Somewhere only we know?

"Nothing In My Way"

A turning tide
Lovers at a great divide
why d’you laugh
When I know that you hurt inside?

And why d’you say
It’s just another day, nothing in my way
I don’t wanna go, I don’t wanna stay
So there’s nothing left to say?
And why d’you lie
When you wanna die, when you hurt inside
Don’t know what you lie for anyway
Now there’s nothing left to say

A tell-tale sign
You don’t know where to draw the line

And why d’you say
It’s just another day, nothing in my way
I don’t wanna go, I don’t wanna stay
So there’s nothing left to say
And why d’you lie
When you wanna die, when you hurt inside
Don’t know what you lie for anyway
Now there’s nothing left to say

Well for a lonely soul, you’re having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, you’re having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, it seems to me that you’re having such a nice time
You’re having such a nice time

For a lonely soul, you’re having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, you’re having such a nice time
For a lonely soul, it seems to me that you’re having such a nice time
You’re having such a nice time

"Fragile"

If blood will flow when flesh and steel are one
Drying in the colour of the evening sun
Tomorrow’s rain will wash the stains away
But something in our minds will always stay
Perhaps this final act was meant
To clinch a lifetime’s argument
That nothing comes from violence and nothing ever could
For all those born beneath an angry star
Lest we forget how fragile we are

On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are

On and on the rain will fall
Like tears from a star like tears from a star
On and on the rain will say
How fragile we are how fragile we are
How fragile we are how fragile we are

"Every Little Thing She Does Is Magic"

Though I’ve tried before to tell her
Of the feelings I have for her in my heart
Every time that I come near her
I just lose my nerve
As I’ve done from the start

Every little thing she does is magic
Everything she do just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

Do I have to tell the story
Of a thousand rainy days since we first met
It’s a big enough umbrella
But it’s always me that ends up getting wet

Every little thing she does is magic
Everything she do just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

I resolve to call her up a thousand times a day
And ask her if she’ll marry me in some old fashioned way
But my silent fears have gripped me
Long before I reach the phone
Long before my tongue has tripped me
Must I always be alone?

Every little thing she does is magic
Everything she do just turns me on
Even though my life before was tragic
Now I know my love for her goes on

"Mr Brightside"

I’m coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

And I just can’t look - it’s killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Turning through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I’m coming out of my cage
And I’ve been doing just fine
Gotta gotta be down
Because I want it all
It started out with a kiss
How did it end up like this?
It was only a kiss, it was only a kiss
Now I’m falling asleep
And she’s calling a cab
While he’s having a smoke
And she’s taking a drag
Now they’re going to bed
And my stomach is sick
And it’s all in my head
But she’s touching his chest
Now, he takes off her dress
Now, let me go

‘Cause I just can’t look - it’s killing me
And taking control
Jealousy, turning saints into the sea
Turning through sick lullabies
Choking on your alibis
But it’s just the price I pay
Destiny is calling me
Open up my eager eyes
‘Cause I’m Mr Brightside

I never…
I never…
I never…

Gua bingung nih.. hehehe kapan sih devin ga bingung yah….
another end in my so called love life… napa mesti gitu yah? apa karna gua atau emang cewenya? what did i do? itu yang gua bingung.. seharusnya gua udah baeee banget menurut gua… kesalahan2 bisa gua maafkan… to forgive but not forgotten… yah namanya manusia,,,, masih inget2 salah orang yah boleh lah..
cuman kalo ternyata itu masih kurang yahh what can i do? i’m just a simple person with a simple mind….
So here’s start my Single Again Journey Cruisin this so called life of mine..
leave all storiess behind.. forget about the past… and lift my head to see the life that God gonna give me… and Hope for the best..
Coz offcourse… i’m Mr.BrightSide?
hahaha
Luv U All… and God Bless

I.. I always thought that I knew
I’d always have the right to
be living in the kingdom of the good and true
It’s so long that now I think I was wrong
and you were laughing along
And now I look a fool for thinking you were on…my side.

Is it any wonder that I’m tired?
Is it any wonder that I feel uptight?
Is it any wonder I don’t know what’s right?

Sometimes it’s hard to know where I stand,
It’s hard to know where I am,
Well maybe it’s a puzzle I don’t understand.
Sometimes I get the feeling that I’m
stranded in the wrong time
where love is just a lyric in a children’s rhyme…a soundbite.

Is it any wonder that I’m tired?
Is it any wonder that I feel uptight?
Is it any wonder I don’t know what’s right?
Oh, these days, after all the misery you made,
Is it any wonder that I feel afraid?
Is it any wonder that I feel betrayed?

Nothing left inside this old cathedral,
just the sad, lonely spires,
How do you make it right?

Oh, but you try.
Is it any wonder that I’m tired?
Is it any wonder that I feel uptight?
Is it any wonder I don’t know what’s right?
Oh, these days, after all the misery made,
Is it any wonder that I feel afraid?
Is it any wonder that I feel betrayed?

Happy bday to me.. my 26th bday… man.. i’m old…

gila,… gua udah 26 gitu loch… blum punya rumah, blum punya mobil, motor punya walaupun nyicil…. kerjaan luntang lantung… lovelife masih ga jelas…

kali ini gua merayakan ultah di MAKASSAR.. jauh dari orang2.. cuman ama keluarga… sepi jg yah.. miz u all guys… but apa yang mau dikata.. gua mesti urus dulu gua mau ngapain sih skarang.. banyak banget yang mau gua kerjain.. but no money.. tapi tenang aja.. Tuhan yang akan sediakan.. ya ga..

mau pulang deh……….

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrong that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I’ll be forever thankful baby
You’re the one who held me up
Never let me fall
You’re the one who saw me through through it all

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you love me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, you gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I’m grateful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don’t know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you love me

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark shining your love into my life
You’ve been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn’t speak
You were my eyes when I couldn’t see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn’t reach
You gave me faith ‘coz you believed
I’m everything I am
Because you loved me

I’m everything I am
Because you loved me